Do you ever feel like a good friend of yours, possibly even a potential lover, was slipping away from you? Like you may have upset that person in some way and then, all of a sudden, you're not friends anymore? I'm feeling that way right now.

I may have done something to push someone I cared about away, but the worst part of it is that I don't know what it is that I've done. This person won't talk with me so that we can work it out. I don't want to just forget about this person; I cared about them a lot.

So, to that person, if they decide to read this, or if they never see it, I am sorry for whatever I have done to push you away. I don't mean to cause drama for you. I care for you deeply and wish you only the best. Please, let's work it out.

Okay, so, I've been inspired to create some Fairly Oddparents fan art. Now, it's not gonna be PG, but it's gonna be sexy as hell. I know that seems odd, but, hey! Isn't that what art's all about? Teehee... Anywho, catch ya later!

So, I went clubbing the other night, and got the email address (Japanese phone number, really) of this really cute girl. It made me happy to think that she was willing to befriend me, especially because I'm not very good with my Japanese language and stuff.

Other than that, I guess things are pretty normal. I'm a little bored, though, because I'm sitting in class and haven't eaten yet. I don't have any money, sadly, and so I can't eat again until tomorrow. It sucks, because it's only 1:39 p.m. right now! Ugh!

Oh, yeah, found someone who's willing to be my fuck buddy, but I don't think I'll take that person up on that offer. I'm too scared of getting an STD or getting preggers that I think I'll probably chicken out anyway.

Well, I've gotta go because I'm not paying attention in class anymore, and I think that's a bad thing. For those of you who read this, thanks for taking the time. Please comment on my latest entries. Thanks, and love to you and yours! O_x

Okay so here's what's been going on. I'm back in Japan doing all kinds of things, mostly studying the language and working on my art. I've been given the chance to do some new work, though, because of my scholarship. See, I used some of the money to get myself a Wacom tablet, which I've wanted for some time now, but I'm finding it hard to make the transition from physical to digital media. It's like, I'm so used to looking at the paper I draw on instead of looking at a screen and blindly drawing on a tablet! You know what I mean?

Anyway, I hope to get used to it soon and then start using it for a lot more of my drawings. I've been having a lot of new ideas lately, so I'll try to put them down on paper (or into Photoshop) very soon!

Well, I have finally decided that despite what a nerd I was in high school, I am no longer in that stage of my life. I tried RPing again tonight, like I used to do on the internet oh so many times before, and I realized...I can't do it. There are all these new rules about "auto-gos" and stuff like that. It's not for fun anymore, but for rules, and I can't really agree with that, nor can I keep up with the times. In addition, I have no imagination anymore. It's as if a part of me has died, and it hurts. I guess it's not all bad seeing as how RPing on the internet is considered an addictive and anti-social practice to most people, but it just sucks that I don't have anymore creativity left in me. My muse has died; I've been rung dry. I'm hoping to become inspired sometime soon. If I don't...well, I'm not sure. The only thing I am sure of is this: I don't want the inside to die...don't want the spirit to die...